Memories floating in the cloud...

Sadness...

Pressuring atmosphere from personal and school life...

I am being driven crazy...

My goals, aims - one by one diminishing...
caused by problems from my FAMILY SITUATION, STUDY SITUATION, FINANCIAL SITUATION....

What is love about?
What is life about?
What is fate about?

What is the meaning of family warmth, guidance, motivation and support?
I cannot sense none of it. My life is turning upside down. Economic Crisis...
Family Crisis, Relationship Crisis, Image Crisis, Time Crisis... Everything not going smoothly along my way.

Life is really meaningless.. Can I give up on my life? Feel like giving up my life. What is the other world looked like? Do there have more feeling and warmth than this world? Are people more friendly and caring?

HERE, A plastic world that I am living in which cares about power, money, images and apple-polisher. No one can understand what my thought and approach that I am driving towards. My worry - anyone care?, My Life - anyone bothers? My situation - anyone helping? What a messy life that I am living. Everyday worry this and that. Everyone look at me in a discouraging manner.

I am breaking down already day by day... Can I have a good reset to my entire life [Family Background, Financial Support, Character Cultivation, Images Building? Sick of my problems. crazy and stressful.

Every night, I cry.. who really cares my internal feeling? Am I really happy? I can not longer smile as cheerful as I am used to be.