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Tuesday, July 8, 2008
An Unhappiness That Arrested My Heart
Falling in love is an unexplainable issue in my heart. I really care about the person whom I am in love with. From one day when I am with her, I really want to be with her forever. However as each day pass, I become possessive over her. I am not sure why I have become like that. The only thing that I know is that when I fall in love deeper, I want to know more about her life: every moment of action, incidents, emotions and thoughts. It seems that I am going crazy over her.
For a slight glitch between us, I try to stay calm to prevent quarrel. However things get worsen when the pointing of fault weights more heavily solely onto me. In my mind, I don’t even want to quarrel over these kinds of issue but the jealous does trigger into my feeling that leads to unhappiness whenever I am not comfortable with the matter of incidents in this situation.
I feel that I am in wrong of trying to control her life too much. However I didn’t mean to control her life. I don’t mind who she is talking. My hope is that she is able to tell me what it is going on during the conversation. I don’t care what really the conversation is. Just want to have a trust that she can put into me and build up my trust upon her. Honestly speaking, as a guy, I dislike my girlfriend keep talking with guys often over any method of conversation. If it is a female-to-female chit-chat, I don’t mind. But I really cannot stand it when my girlfriend have more interesting topic to talk with guys than her boyfriend. To me, I don’t care how important that the matter is. I only want the attention and love whenever I am seeking for it. I believe that in a love relationship, there is always a give and take in both the parties.
“No matter how the earth rocks or how other people need you, you are able to give the full attention to your partner. Perhaps your partner really needs more attention, care and concern from you.”
For a slight glitch between us, I try to stay calm to prevent quarrel. However things get worsen when the pointing of fault weights more heavily solely onto me. In my mind, I don’t even want to quarrel over these kinds of issue but the jealous does trigger into my feeling that leads to unhappiness whenever I am not comfortable with the matter of incidents in this situation.
I feel that I am in wrong of trying to control her life too much. However I didn’t mean to control her life. I don’t mind who she is talking. My hope is that she is able to tell me what it is going on during the conversation. I don’t care what really the conversation is. Just want to have a trust that she can put into me and build up my trust upon her. Honestly speaking, as a guy, I dislike my girlfriend keep talking with guys often over any method of conversation. If it is a female-to-female chit-chat, I don’t mind. But I really cannot stand it when my girlfriend have more interesting topic to talk with guys than her boyfriend. To me, I don’t care how important that the matter is. I only want the attention and love whenever I am seeking for it. I believe that in a love relationship, there is always a give and take in both the parties.
“No matter how the earth rocks or how other people need you, you are able to give the full attention to your partner. Perhaps your partner really needs more attention, care and concern from you.”
